Midlife, Perimenopause, Emotional Fitness and My “Zero Fcks Given” Card (That Wasn’t Fully Activated)
Alright y’all…Truth talk.
I’m over here, fingers crossed, hoping I’m nearing the end of Peri and will just glide on into menopause in the next five months. And yes, I know menopause doesn’t magically make all the crazy stop… but let me live in my little fantasy for a minute.
For years, I blamed perimenopause for everything, the mood swings, the brain fog, the “what the actual hell is happening?” moments.
But if I’m honest?
Some of that wasn’t new.
I’ve always been the dependable one. The loyal one. The one who shows up.
But underneath that?
There was always this quiet noise:
I’m not enough.
I should be doing more.
I don’t quite fit.
Then my 40s hit and I grabbed hold of my “zero f*cks given” card.
I waved that thing around like I’d unlocked some elite level of not caring.
And sure, it felt freeing… for a minute.
But let’s be real:
I still gave a f*ck.
About what people thought.
About getting it right.
About being enough.
So, I did what most of us do when we feel off…
I tried to fix it.
I did the talk therapy thing.
I did the meditation thing.
I did the exercise-until-I-was-exhausted thing.
And guess what followed me every single time?
The ego.
Fear. Scarcity. Old stories on repeat.
It didn't matter where I went, even 250 miles into the wilderness carrying half my body weight…
It came with me.
And maybe you know that feeling too.
Where you’re doing “all the right things” …
But something still feels off.
Like you’re trying really hard to feel like yourself again, and just can’t quite get there.
If you’re in that space right now; questioning, frustrated, maybe even a little disconnected from yourself, you’re not alone.
This is exactly the kind of work we begin inside the Emotional Fitness for Perimenopause & Beyond Retreat @ Menla Retreat Center & Dewa Spa, June 4th–7th.
If you’re ready to stop spinning your wheels and start understanding what’s really going on underneath it all.
Come join us. Your spot is waiting.